I Collected Things for the Babies I Never Had.

“You’ll be thinking about all this one day when you have your own babies.’

My spine stiffened when I heard a woman speak the dreaded phrase to my eighteen-year-old niece last week. I should have added, ‘If she has children.’ But I said nothing. Years of conditioning has silenced me.

During those years, I collected sets of Tupperware containers, Corningware dishes, dinner sets and linen so I would be prepared to fulfil my matrimonial duties someday. What is even more unsettling, is that I purchased toys and tooth fairy pillows for the children I never ended up having.

I was taught how to sew things for my babies in High School Textiles. A subject I’m not even sure exists today. I was flooded with pride as I spent several weeks making a bunny baby cot quilt featuring a thick white frill around the edge. I also imagined holding and dressing my baby as I carefully fed pale pink dress fabric into the sewing machine. Being a girly girl myself, I never considered having boys. The whole process of collecting and planning evoked attachments to a time that seemed far away. Connecting me to babies I never birthed.

May every woman know they are loved and worthy, regardless of whether or not they become a wife or mother. I believe in connecting through aligned energy and humanness, rather than any outdated title or role.

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